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7.10.2008
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Its about time. Too many Chabad houses pump you with liquor to make you smile.
I remember one vague day of my drunken life. I was standing in the kitchen of a Chabd House. The liquor cabinet was exploding when I got there. A week later it was almost on empty.
I stood in front of the familiar doors below the sink hoping no one would walk through the front door and bust me, but hoping that some one would.
I played my life on the drunken screen I created in my head. I cried. I hated it. I lost everything, my family, my home, my car, my indipendane. Everything. I hated myself because I knew myself. I knew I let the wagon go but I tried hard as hell to hide it and deny it. It was one of the times I hit rock bottom. All those thoughts full of self hate were going through my head while I poured another drink and washed some tylenol and motrin down with it so I wouldnt suffer the hang over in the morning.
I live a secret , a denial a huge problem that has amounted in many death's in the community that raised me.
Is it my fault ? or am I looking for a scapegoat? I dont know.
All I know is this.
My name is Leah Kleim, and I am an addict, totaly sober and shaking while I write this.
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