"Chin Up"

Thursday night’s spiritual reading at the Friendship House had a huge impact on me. In part, the topic was about overcoming our problems or depression by using joy. This is a concept I could not relate to prior to recovery.

Humor and laughter were my modus apparatus to fight the pain I felt deep down in my soul. Sarcasm seemed to be my most humorous way of dealing with the depression, anger and resentment I carried for most of my life. I now know that sarcasm was a sinister form of boosting my own ego.

One of the most painful things that happened to me when I reached the bottom was my inability to laugh. When I realized that I had lost my humor, I knew that I was in the deepest darkest phase of my addiction. This realization was the most fearful moment I’ve ever experienced and was one of the catalysts toward my recovery.

Increasing my spirituality through the 12 steps has filled the gaping hole in my soul. My ability to laugh has returned purely and honestly. Today, I am able to share unconditional joy with people I come in contact with. I am convinced that I have the power of choice to look at the negative situations in my life in a positive light. If I keep my "chin up" my joyful attitude will get me everywhere!